Sunday, December 18, 2011

A Tiny Victory



I hope I'm not the only writer who sometimes can't think of a single thing to say.

All my energy has been devoted to working through a paralyzing anxiety attack this week. I'm grateful that in spite of it I've conducted the basic stuff of living. Small things like paying bills and trimming the Christmas tree have been accomplished with gritted teeth and prayer, and the fear recedes a little more each day.

And today, a migrating flock of cedar waxwings paid a visit to the shrubs outside my office window. Their annual visitation always gives me joy. This morning I was especially thankful, because I have battled a beast and not been defeated. There are many kinds of victories, some so ordinary that they can be easily overlooked. I'm glad my eyes were open today.

(Don't know who to credit for this lovely shot of a cedar waxwing)


Sunday Morning Addendum:
Cedar waxwings everywhere! This morning's flock is huge, gorging on the red-berry bushes! Underneath the bushes, the kitties crouch, yakking at the beautiful birdies!


"Come to me, lovely little birdies!" says Mystery the Cat. The waxwings respectfully decline.


16 comments:

e said...

I'm sorry you've been gripped by anxiety...It sounds like you were able to marshal forces and do the things you needed to. Someone is watching over you.

Glynis said...

Glad you overcame the attack. I feel for you, having been through it all.

Enjoy your festive season.

Brian Miller said...

i am glad you have wrestled the beast and come out the other side chris...it happens...

Lou said...

I appreciate the honesty, and realistic optimism here. There is always something I can relate to. So happy for your "victory", I know it does not come easily. May the rest of this holiday season be calm and your loved ones surround you.

Rachel Fox said...

You've been doing so well lately. Sorry to hear anxiety called on you this week.
x

Yvonne Osborne said...

Pretty enough to put in a frame. Sometimes our eyes are wide open and we still don't see. Think I'll go for a walk...I won't see cedar waxwings but maybe I can stir up a few crows.

Peter Goulding said...

Chris, you're an inspiration to us all. I read your blog all the time but don't post comments near enough. Keep up the good work. Love and Merry Christmas,
Pete

The Bug said...

I think the birds in our back yard have been Mike's salvation this year - they really do offer a solace that you can't get anywhere else. Except maybe not to cats :)

ScottF said...

Hi Chris- magnificent bird, I wish the Cedars would come see us, they're so beautiful!

I too have been having some anxiety and fear-based stress. Christmas, too much stuff on my palte, finances... all contributing to the personal insanity. Thank God there's God and AA (and birds...)

be well, God bless and thank you for reminding me that this too shall pass :-)

the cuby poet said...

love the bird ahot.Sorry to hear of your anxiety attack and hope that as each day passes things will get a little easier. I am a follower of your blog.

Lyn said...

No wonder you were feeling anxious! The Christmas season has become this huge event with pressures that extend to a myriad of issues including gift giving, finances, entertaining,family relationships and dynamics and it goes on. I could feel it mounting about a week ago. It is an overwhelming season with us trying to cram a year's worth of socializing etc into one week. Glad you are seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I hope you enjoy the bounties of your efforts.

the walking man said...

No your not the only person who at times can not find the inspiration to write Chris.

Kristin H. said...

Pretty much most days I have nothing to say. Makes me a ridiculously boring blogger. But I hang around for the company. I like chatting with all you fine people.

Hang in there.

Syd said...

Chris, glad that you are feeling better. The cedar waxwings are beautiful! Our cats love to look at birds and lizards.

Birdie said...

Chris, you are strong, so strong!! i'm sorry the anxiety was back but it will all go away again, isn't it?
you did a great job and i'm happy that you feel better!!! and haha at the picture of your cat ... thank you it made me haha out loud :-)
merry Christmas!!!
ps: after having repeated problems with my old blog i created a new one (no i'm not running away from problems ;-) i just don't have the time to sit by it and fix it every time i log in) and i hope you will like my new place too :-)

Margaret said...

The tree and red berries are outside your window... wow. I can see why you used this as a photo header. Just stunning!

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